Our daughter Jennifer has been gone for almost 3 1/2 years now. Yet I still feel like it was just yesterday. Some days are better than others naturally, but particularly this year I can’t even really explain it to myself what is so wrong about this year.
In addition to all of my uncertain emotions, I somehow lost this particular blog! This is the initial blog that I started about 4 or 5 months after Jennifer pasted away. originally I was a blog through Googles blogspot, but I kept hearing about how much better WordPress was for blogging. I started to subscribe to a few blogs that gave you all kinds of tips about having a blog through WordPress. I believe I signed up to 3 or 4 different blogs to follow, as well as looking on utube for tutorials. There were so many blogs to chose from that it was a bit overwhelming.
So I set up a few files that I could move these emails to, but many of them I was receiving one everyday. They had a lot of really good information on them, regarding themes, plug-ins, and much more information. Now, if I could only find the time to read them all!
The blog on Google was actually quite easy to setup, considering that I had never started a blog before in my life. Then one of the bloggers that I followed was offering to set up a free blog for anyone who contacted him, and then referenced his blog when he completed setting it up. I thought that this was a great opportunity for me to switch to WordPress! And who wouldn’t, to have a completely set up blog, that all you had to do to it, was change the theme if you wanted, and add any extra plugins if you wanted.
However I immediately started running into problems. I already had this blog all set up, with its own registered domain name, and so I followed the instructions of transferrinng all of my blog posts that I had written under the Google blog, (140 posts) to the free WordPress blog that was set up, ready to receive all of my posts.
When the gentleman set up the new free site, he had contacted me to ask me what was my domain name, and web hosting company. So when I moved all of my posts, I moved them to the hosting company site, that had my domain name. I was so happy with how easy this was turning our to be.
However, in my excitement to begin posting on my new WordPress blog, I didn’t use to free pre set up blog! I started my own under my domain name, Loving and Losing Jennifer. I think I did that because I was so excited to be posting again! But……in doing so, I messed everything up! And then I got so frustrated that I couldn’t figure anything out.
So, due to all of my frustration, that I actually created all by myself, I stepped back from blogging all togeather. So it has been a very long time since I even looked at my blog, and then I couldn`t find the darn thing at all when I searched for it!
Happily, I believe that I am finally on the right site!!
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that during all the time that I was away from my blog, I began to find myself back where I was emotionally, back when I started this blog.
So rather than sit down and take the time to figure out where I went wrong, I decided to start a second blog. (Probably not the best idea that I came up with!) the only thing positive in starting the new blog, was that I apparently set this one up correctly. Don’t ask me how I managed this, except that maybe Jennifer helped me out with it! Anyways, now I will have two blogs to write in, well now that I have fixed Loving and Losing Jennifer!
The new blogs name is Letters To Heaven, and I have already written three posts in it. Let’s hope that I finally have this figured out! This new blog will be about letters that I am writing to my daughter, Jennifer. As if she was away at college. Only my letters will all be addressed to her in Heaven.
Loving and losing Jennifer 